Hotel people
I’ve probably spent between 18 months and two years living in hotels. So perhaps it’s no surprise they feature so prominently in my dreams.
It’s interesting how the same dream can go through phases…
… the essence of the dream is always the same though I’m sometimes alone, sometimes with a companion. I’m trying to get somewhere – it’s unclear exactly where – while trying to avoid being seen by certain people. I spot the hotel and decide it would be a good place to lay low for a while… you can loiter in a hotel lobby for a long time without drawing attention (usually in a comfy chair), and hotels have dozens of places to hide. In the dream the hotel isn’t quite a safe place, but it’s safer. It’s a place where I’m at a greater advantage.
I spent several months of my early teens living in the Athens Hilton and then later another spell in the Nile Hilton in Cairo. It always felt like there was intrigue in the air… that a James Bond film was just about to unfold at the top of the stairs next to the hotel casino… or perhaps in the rooftop bar… It was a world full of beautiful, self-confident women and successful, powerful men; a world where the most sumptuous luxuries a palate could desire would be demanded on room service as a snack to eat with a movie; a world of swimming pools and tennis courts and important business breakfasts with Jordanian princes and Kuwaiti sheikhs.
For about a year after returning from Brazil I would dream of grand old colonial hotels crumbling and decaying; overrun with amazonian flora and fauna. It was always night-time in those dreams, and the hotel would be bathed in moonlight, seeping through cracks in the ceilings and walls, splashing off a million shards of shattered chandelier. The air hung heavy with the scent of jasmine.
But recently it’s reverted to a slightly less exotic setting. It’s daylight and I’m making my way through the streets of Chicago. I spot the Hyatt Hotel where I spent four months. Trying not to run, because I know that’ll draw attention, I walk through the revolving doors and into the lobby. The lobby is sparsely populated, and the few people who are there are non-threatening. They’re exactly who you’d expect to find in a hotel lobby. They are hotel people. To my right is the news-stand and beyond that a smaller lobby with comfortable booths and relative privacy… straight ahead is the Atrium Café, currently serving lunch… there’s a hushed stillness to the air and my footsteps make no sound as I begin walking through the lobby.
The hotel becomes a carpeted labyrinthe. I walk through it for a long time, down corridors, past gift-shops and restaurants and bars. Up and down rarely used staircases and through dimly lit lobbies past mezzanine coffee shops. Around me the hotel goes about its business. Ignoring me exactly as it should. All the silent hotel people dreaming of sleep and going about their day. And the far off tinkling of a piano can be heard above the muted hum of the hotel soundscape.
I stayed at a hotel just outside Chicago – a place called Rosemont – for 5 or 6 weeks. The project I was working on required collating and analysing data gathered by a dozen or so field engineers. There were four of us living at the hotel. Four separate rooms. Plus another room which we converted to a makeshift office (the result of our analysis would determine whether or not it made sense to set up a permanent office in Chicago). Another two rooms to house the field engineers who each made regular short trips back to “HQ” to be debriefed and receive further instruction.
I would wake in my room. Walk the short distance to the elevator which dropped me off next to the breakfast bar. There I would choose from a menu and buffet containing every breakfast your heart could desire. I would eat with my three colleagues, and at 8am we would walk the short distance from the elevator to our “office room” where we would work until 8pm (with a sandwich ordered in at lunch). Then it would be back to the room to order room-service and watch a pay-per-view movie.
After work the other three would eat together, with a few beers, in the sports bar. I was seen as a little odd for disappearing as soon as work was over. Me… I just couldn’t spend an evening with the same three people I’d had breakfast and lunch and spent the entire day cooped up in a hotel room with. I need a bit more space than that.
And there’s an amazing sense of space to be found in a hotel room. I mean, these rooms in Rosemont were huge (two big bedrooms and a living area; each with big screen TVs; plus a bathroom and small kitchen… that was one room… like a mini-luxury-flat). But I’m not talking about the physical size of the room.
When you get back to your hotel room after a day working, the time you have in that small box belongs to you in a way that time rarely does. And the space around you expands to compensate. All of the essentials of life are provided for, but you’re coccooned from the real world. The real world may as well not exist when you’re in a Hyatt or an Intercon or a Hilton or Marriott. You’re in a castle outside time. You and all the other hotel people.
The dream continues until I emerge from the hotel through a side entrance. I occasionally become lucid or – more often – wake up at this point… leaving the hotel is leaving a dream.
And finally…
I apologise, by the way, for yesterday’s dreadful joke (the George Bush / bird flu thing). I was trying out a system for styling blog entries by category, and came up with the “NewsBite” category. And that dire attempt at comedy was the first thing that came to hand. I can only hope that my category-styles will tart up better content in the future.
I laughed at it, so it can’t have been too dreadful.
March 10th, 2006 | 1:24am
by Paul
yup, made me snigger too..
re: hotel dreams (on a vague tangent)
ali smith wrote a fantastic book called ‘hotel world‘
and this guy does some pretty good hotel artwork (if you like that sort of thing. which i do). not just hotels, but train stations, empty rooms…. “spaces for waiting, sleeping, leaving”this is my favourite.
March 10th, 2006 | 9:41am
by zoe
You’re apologizing for that joke? It was the best thing I read yesterday. That and the photo, anyway.
March 10th, 2006 | 1:35pm
by Backword Dave
On the dream account.
Very interesting dream account and to my mind brave of you to share such personal material with your readers. I notice you don’t venture an any self analysis here. Is this an attempt to invite some?
From my small understanding of such matters this seems to reflect the safe nature of sleep, insulated briefly from the pains of the world, with the Hotel sybolising the refuge of sleep (exiting the Hotel to wakefullness), along with the transient nature of life. Also the fact that you aren’t in some run down old dive, and that the hotel seems a place of endless pleasures and possibilities strikes me as being a rather positive reflection on your state of mind.
Buildings feature heavily in my dreams also (a common theme i’m sure), and are always in one of two categories; places of refuge (I’m either leading people to them or seeking out the inhabitants), or places abandoned by people, often inhabited by monsters and usually with physical dangers. There is often a theme of climbing through severely enclosed spaces, tunnels gaps in walls etc…
Not entirely sure what this indicates, accept that there are… er issues… I am dealing with ;).
On the joke.
Ok, the joke was corny, and these days Bush is frankly an easy target, but still in my humble opinion worthy. I only wish i had the time to work up some photoshop material myself as fuel for some corny satire.
March 11th, 2006 | 4:47pm
by Matt Gahan
Hmmm… well, I’m not sure I’d go along with too much of that Matt. Though it’s not like there’s any “right answers” when it comes to this kind of stuff.
I’m not sure how “brave” it is to talk about your dreams. For me, dreams are endlessly fascinating and a well of creative inspiration. But I don’t see them as any more “revealing” of or about me than – for instance – the numerous facts about my life that I mention on my blog (or that we all mention in everyday conversation).
When it comes to gaining an insight into a person; is the fact that they spent 18 months living in hotels more or less revealing than the fact that they dream about them regularly? I don’t know for sure. But I’d hazard a guess at the former. No different to saying that you’d lived on a council estate for two years, or spent two years in prison, or whatever. Our dreams may well reveal a little about who we are, but it’s our memories… the details of our past… that create the person in the first place.
And in truth we reveal very little about ourselves when we paint in such broad strokes. The interesting stuff is in the detail. I hint at a companion… who might that be? I talk about leaving the hotel… but what precisely forces me out? And I mention going up and down staircases… what stops me using the elevators? You see? Now that’s the kind of stuff that might have revealed something.
Also, I think you misread – or else I miscommunicated – the mood a little. The “endless pleasures and possibilities” of the hotel are ultimately hollow. Freshly caught king prawn lightly pan fried in sesame oil and garlic, glazed with a teriyaki dressing and served on a bed of freshly picked organic spinach leaf: one of the most lovely things in the world, but when you reduce it to the snack you eat while watching the latest Farrelly Brothers movie in a sealed air-conditioned box 14 floors up?
It’s almost criminal.
The hotel is a sinister place. The safety there is the safety of the pod people.
March 11th, 2006 | 7:08pm
by Jim
I think my imagining it to be brave was as much about the inevitable attempts at analysis that it invites, which invariably are going to be wrong, my pathetic attempt a case in point. And I feel you are quite right about the small detail being the stuff of personal significance, which are as you say are not revealed here.
But then this is why i should hold off posting the first thoughts that come into my head. I nearly posted something really embarrassing after reading your recent Peak Oil posting but thankfully caught it in time.
I am gradually dealing with my mawkishness, i blame all it on my father (he said mawkishly).
March 11th, 2006 | 7:48pm
by Matt Gahan
Hello Jim,
Hope you’re settling down in Dublin okay.
I’ve wanted to live in a hotel room ever since I saw “2046”, that smoky hotel room fug of the writer at work has an appeal, not to mention the women. But the hotel room has to look like the one in “2046”. And the women too.
As I expect you know, “The Mighty Boosh 2” is just out on DVD. I watched all 6 episodes back to back. Sheer brilliance.
March 12th, 2006 | 1:58am
by Joel
Joel,
I like the Mighty Boosh too. But then I went to see them live in a theatre. “Disappointing” doesn’t even come close…
March 12th, 2006 | 3:16pm
by Larry Teabag
after a while, I would think that living in a hotel would be rather bland– James Bond or no James Bond
March 15th, 2006 | 5:00am
by L
Good lord, Matt, I wasn’t suggesting that your interpretations were “pathetic” or even “wrong”. Just that they’re not the same as mine. For me to try to impose some kind of “right” interpretation on my dreams (or even on my conscious thoughts written down) is sheer foolishness. I disagree with your interpretation… but I don’t reject it as pathetic. Far from it.
To be honest Joel, I’d hesitate to say I’m “settling down” in Dublin just yet. I’m feeling utterly rootless right now and have yet to venture much further than the local shop and post-office. It hardly feels like I’ve arrived yet.
Regarding 2046… I know exactly what you mean. Sadly none of the hotels I’ve ever lived in had that kind of atmosphere. I didn’t discover until a while after seeing it, that 2046 is a sequel to a film called In the Mood for Love (which I’ve yet to see). Although apparently the two are very different films (story-wise), with the atmosphere and the characters being the main common thread.
I hope all’s well back in sunny Walthamstow.
Larry, I almost got the opportunity to see ‘The Boosh’ live but – for one reason or another – it didn’t happen. Being an avid fan of both the radio and TV show I’m rather sad to hear that the original stage version doesn’t measure up. Could it have been an off-night when you saw them?
Still, I’m looking forward to getting hold of the second season on DVD and watching all six back-to-back (Ã la Joel). Truly it’s the silliest, strangest and funniest thing on TV for many a year.
It never got bland when I was growing up, L… at 13 years of age, having moved from a dank and gloomy housing estate in Dublin to my own executive suite with a balcony overlooking the River Nile, I didn’t find anything bland. It wasn’t until years later that I began to appreciate the sinister homogenisation that is encouraged by that world.
March 15th, 2006 | 3:07pm
by Jim
I’ve got both In the mood for love and 2046 lying here on top of my bookcase at the moment, waiting to be watched. I thought if I was going to watch In the mood for love it should be immediately followed by a repeat viewing of 2046. But I’m forming a theory that the less you understand something the more it is freed up to just be beautiful. I can’t say I really “understand” 2046, but curious to see whether the former film oils its cogs, as it were. Certainly 2046 is the film that has stayed in my memory the most from last year.
The second series of Mighty Boosh is even better than the first. I think the episode when they go in search of “The New Sound” is simply marvellous. I’m sure you’ll agree when you see it.
March 16th, 2006 | 3:19am
by Joel
I never heard the radio show, but am quite a fan of the TV show. As you say it is the silliest, strangest and funniest thing on TV.
[stop reading now if you don’t want your dreams shot to pieces]
However on the stage, all the subtle, surreal atmosphere of the TV show was lost, and we were left with a bloke in a gorilla suit and a couple of others in stupid hats acting out 5 minutes worth of uninteresting plot, padded out with 113 minutes of crashingly obvious, dismal, cabaret. There were perhaps 2 minutes during which they reminded you of what they were capable – but that just made the experience all the more painful.
In fairness, (a) it was the opening night of the tour when I saw them (but I’m reluctant allow that as an excuse), (b) the rest of the audience whooped and cheered and seemed to absolutely love it.
Sorry to foist such an uncompromisingly negative post on you, but I’ve been needing to get this off my shoulders for a while…
March 16th, 2006 | 12:50pm
by Larry Teabag
Well Jim, just watched In the mood for love. What a masterpiece. It provides the entire context for 2046. The two together are one film.
March 18th, 2006 | 12:37am
by Joel
I’m excited to hear that the first film lives up to 2046. I just got home from the weekly shop. The supermarket is next door to a large HMV. To my surprise, as I walked past the HMV I noticed a sign saying “World Cinema – Sale On Now!”
I popped in, and sure enough In The Mood for Love was half-price. I’m sticking to my original plan of having a Jim Jarmusch double-bill tonight… but I’ll probably do a In The Mood for Love / 2046 double-bill very soon indeed.
March 18th, 2006 | 4:05pm
by Jim